Sunday Senses

Seeing: raining pouring down making the ground wet and creating its signature smell. I am still wishing one day somebody would make perfume out of this. Earth scent is the best smell ever. 

Drinking: a small glass of plain yogurt. Whenever in doubt, I try to shift my 'escape option' to healthy food/activity. I weigh almost 80 kg back when I was in college, thanks to my escape choice of bad junky food I always picked whenever I was in doubt, or bored, or hungry, or basically in any state of emotion. After graduation, I realized it was a death wish. Moving to Padang Panjang, alhamdulillah, has changed me a lot. I started (wanting to) eat clean and do exercise regularly. My interest in natural activities also finally found its root. Now I weigh 63 kg, and I hit the gym once in a while for some muscle. Everything is for my health, because I simply want to live longer with the people I love. 

Feeling: happy. I haven't been able to stop smiling for at least a month now. I feel so silly. Well, somebody is clearly responsible for this. :-p The thing about love... No matter how silly you feel, or how stupid even, you know and are fully aware you enjoy it. It's magical. It always is. I'm so looking forward to build a funny little life with a man who feels the same. 

Missing: home. I am longing for mom's silly jokes. My granny and grandpa arguing with each other. Neighbor's chicken, they're never taught how to differentiate toilet and other people's porch (or even house), two cool neighbor grannies who often visit my house and have a meal with me, my childhood friends, and everything. Mom is currently sick... Bell's palsy. It's been two weeks. Alhamdulillah she gets better, but hasn't fully recovered. I was told it could take a month or two. I feel helpless that I cannot take care of her in this condition. Calling her everyday I hope, insyallah, would help. 

Loving: everything. Bad and good things that are currently happening in my life. There are times when I wish my life would be different, but it usually occurred two or three seconds. In the end, I always, always feel super blessed with how my life has turned out up to this second, and millions of future seconds.