Tak perlu tunggu dunia ramah. Cukup beri ruang buat lelah. Tak apa-apa jika merasa tTak baik saja. Kalau bisa jangan lama. Kalau bisa ingat hal lainnya. Hal yang baik walau terasa tak seberapa. (Tak Apa-Apa by Bokinana Family)
I stumbled upon this song when it was just released, and somehow my situation at that time connected deeply with its melody and lyrics. And here I am again, reminded of it. As I sit in CFC at BIM Airport Padang, sipping an orange juice I only ordered so I could stay here for a while, I’m thinking about the last five days.
I went home to attend my friend’s wedding, which was only a 20-minute drive from my house. This time I went with my friends, and I had to leave my daughter behind since it was just a short trip. Those days were filled with slow mornings, cafe hopping, and reunions with friends, old and new. Sitting here waiting for my flight back to Medan, saying it’s difficult to leave feels like an understatement. But life goes on.
My husband is the kind of man who puts others first. Sometimes I get annoyed when his decisions don’t align with mine. Yet when I’m the one he puts first, I can’t help but think, “How could I love him more?”
Maybe that’s what life is about: holding the mix of exhaustion and joy, of wanting more while being grateful for what’s already here. I can sit with my tiredness, acknowledge it, then slowly let it pass as I return to my daily tasks. At the end of the day, there are still little things: an orange juice in a noisy airport corner, five days of togetherness, words I keep close to my heart, that remind me life is worth savoring, even when it feels farrr from easy.
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Bandara Internasional Minangkabau
